“ Mommy, I love laying on you!
Brayden Matthew Owens
a very random chick
I love hooters!
So, I am currently struggling with one of my top things I cannot stand. Limbo. It is a terrible thing for me. It is such a hard thing for me to even describe in regards to what it does to me, but it is an overall horrible feeling. I was laid off from work on Friday and the past several days I have been trying to cope with all the emotions. One minute I am totally fine with the whole idea, and the next I want to crawl out of my skin. I am trying to figure out what direction I want my life to go in now. I have a brand new open, blank canvas to create whatever I want, but what I want to create is what I am struggling with. I have many ideas I just need to write them all down and figure out where I should begin. So this picture of me is a good look into my eyes of all the things limbo makes me feel: vulnerable, scared, desperate, fearful, the unknown, out of control, weak, failure.
Here is to me moving on, starting over, being successful with whatever life may bring to me and what I am going to create on my blank canvas!
Quirks
I decided to steal my sister’s idea and do a post of my top 7 quirks. It was very hard for me to narrow them down as I have so many, but I think these are the best.
1. I can’t stand the feeling of limbo in any aspect of my life. I always have to have a direction and know where I am going. Back and forth will push me over the edge! :)
2. I LOVE LOVE LOVE doing laundry, ironing, and cleaning! I know, super crazy, but I can’t help it. I love having a clean house, clean sheets, and clean clothes! I think what it really boils down to is that I love having a sense of accomplishment. Oops, is that 2 quirks in one? Oh well!
3. I love jewelry! I am not sure if I really love wearing it as much as looking at it in the stores!? I especially love rings, earrings, and bracelets.
4. I cannot stand CONFRONTATION of any kind. I don’t like to argue, unless I KNOW I am right of course, but generally I back down. I don’t like listening to arguing, it really makes me feel super uncomfortable and I feel like I have to be the peacemaker.
5. Okay this is kinda a secret I recently started revealing. I LOVE my birthday! I love celebrating it and hearing Happy Birthday! Isn’t that crazy? I don’t want gifts or really anything other than getting together with my friends and family. But please don’t take me to a restaurant and have them sing to me, I will die!
6. I have a CRAZY 6th Sense! Those of you who really know me, know this is true! I get “feelings” about people or situations and 9 times out of 10 they are usually right. I really try my hardest to not “judge” for lack of better word, but when I get that gut feeling about something, it is usually right on. It is really hard to explain, and many people don’t understand, but it is there!
7. I have the sense of humor of a 12 year old boy. I swear, I don’t know what it is or where I get it from. But anything that is said, my brain takes it and automatically makes it into something terrible and crass! I have a major gutter brain! It is really hard for me not to say something anytime it can be taken out of context, I bite my tongue A LOT! I would compare myself to Michael from The Office.
So there you go, the 7 quirks of Kell. Hey that sounds like a good name for a book!
I don’t know why, but I LOVE taking pictures of my eyeballs! It is very strange I know, but it is a mystery as to why!
Personality
So I took this a goofy personality test and thought I would share. So here we go!
My Priorities:
1. Love
2. Family
3. Career
4. Money
5. Pride
Descriptions:
My personality: Obnoxious (hahaha)
My partners personality: Cuddly (still searching for this person)
Way I see my enemies: Dirty
Way I interpret sex: Amazing
Way my own life is: Calm
People in My Life:
Someone I will never forget: Becki
My True Friend: Mom
One I Really Love: Dad
My Twin Soul: Amber
Remember the Rest of My Life: Brayden
So there you go people, now you know it all!
Sneak peak! I took Brayden to pick out his halloween costume this morning. He is so excited and so am I! I can’t wait to see him all dressed up and take him trick-or-treating! I will make sure to post the pictures of the whole experience!
Music
Music is such a huge part of my life. It never seems to fail whenever I have something on my mind, a song comes on that is so perfect for what is going through my crazy brain. As most of you know, this week, for whatever reason, has been a very blah week for me. I go through phases of being lonely, and this week I would say has been pretty low for me. Anyway, as I was driving to work this morning I was thinking if I was going to be forever single. Not necessarily wanting a huge commitment in my life right now, but just in need of someone I can count on and do things with outside of my work friendships. So as I was thinking about all of this, I am flipping through the stations hoping to find something to cheer my soul. I am not a huge country fan, but do like the occasional Tim McGraw, Kenny Chesney, Carrie Underwood and such. So as I flip to a country station, Please Remember Me by Tim McGraw comes on and it was so perfect for the thoughts in my brain. Even though I think it is about death, possibly, part of the chorus struck my heart in such a way that I had to step back to reality to realize that I will find love again. Actually I believe it will find me. So here is a little blurb of what keeps on playing in my brain:
You’ll find better love
Strong as it ever was
Deep as the river runs
Warm as the morning sun
Please remember me
Random pic of me being once again, random! Everyone at work says that I am not right. Yea, they know me very well. Can’t really explain why I am odd, but that is just me!
So, peace out!
This is my bff Ambie. She makes me smile and happy. She is always there to listen to my crazy life stories, my breakdowns for who knows why, she is my workout buddy, we take crazy goofy pictures via photobooth, and best of all we share an office. We hope that one day our 3 year olds will grow up to marry each other so that we can be in-laws! I am happy that we have grown to know each other over the last year and hope will always be friends. Thanks Amber for being my friend, you are awesome!
